Posted by Createtolive on June 3, 2013
I am a Christian. I believe in God. Jesus walks beside me everyday, everywhere I go. Sometimes I don’t feel him, and sometimes I forget he is there. But he has never left my side yet. Not. For. A. Second. And I know he never will. I know he died on the cross for me because I was, am, and always will be a sinner. But I’m covered now. I have the Holy Spirit in my heart and it’s been that way for over 30 years. I have strayed. Oh man, how I have strayed. But everytime I come back, I get a little closer, and stay a little longer. I am (finally) at the point where I don’t “forget” or lose sight of him anymore. I am a stubborn one and I have to make the same mistake so, so many times before I learn my lesson! Isn’t He an amazing God to let me mess up over and over and over again, yet He always takes me back!
I believe in every single word that is in the Bible. Every book, every chapter, every paragraph, every sentence AND every truth. It’s really the only thing I can totally depend on that won’t steer me wrong.
I am not a regular church-attender. I have a church with an truly wonderful church family that cares for me. First it was because my Sunday was my husbands only day off. Then it was/is my health. But still, those are excuses. A lot of Sundays my health really, truly prevents me from going. But there are times that I could definitely try harder and go anyways. I’m not really sure why that is. But I want to go back oh so much! That is my next goal. To attend church regularly. I lack motivation. My health has kept me down so long, it’s hard to get up and try again because I am afraid of failure. That it will get bad again and I won’t follow through. I start a lot of things and then don’t finish them! Can anyone relate? I hope so because I really feel alone in that area.
Guess where I will be this Sunday? Church! I am going to gather up all my desire, motivation (I may have to pretend on that one), will-power and God-power, and just do it!
I will let you know on Monday, how it went! Pray for me please.
Posted by Createtolive on May 18, 2013
It’s true! Tomorrow at 11am I have a date. And the datee is a handsome young lad of 23 years and it’s our first date together. Ooooh…did I hear your jaw hit the floor and am I pretty sure you just had “cradle-robber” run through your brain? Well pick your jaw back up and calm down now. It’s with my son. My eldest…first-born…my dark-haired look-alike. Yes it is our first real “date” ever. And he asked me! Be still my beating heart! The datee, Samir, and I have an unusual history together. It’s a tear-jerking, beautiful story, that I will save for another day because it is a long, long story. But you will definitely have to check back again and read this nonfiction best-seller and read it when I get to posting it.
To give you a mere glimpse of the story, Samir lives 45 minutes away from me, where he attends his 3rd year of college and works as a tutor. He was married 2 years ago to his lovely wife, who I have yet to meet, in Morocco, where his father lives. And they have been apart since that blissful day. The past 2 years has been a lot of paperwork, saving a nest egg on a small salary, and waiting for our government (and Morocco’s too, I suppose) to give him the okay to go get her and bring her here to finally live together as husband and wife. If all goes well, she will be here at the end of this summer. I cannot wait to meet and get to know my new daughter!
So anyways, back to the date. Tomorrow I will pick him up at his apartment, take him to lunch, and spend the day shopping for gifts for his wife, and for his family in Morocco. He leaves in June to spend the summer there. And he asked me to help him with his shopping and spend the day together, as we won’s see each other for the entire summer.
I’m very excited about this date and I know it will be a wonderful, much needed, bonding time for us. So remember, stop by here again soon to see our amazing story. It’s a real “Dr. Phil” type story and I assure you that you won’t be sorry you came back to read it!
Posted by Createtolive on April 16, 2013
I have been stalling…waiting until I understand how to work this thing perfectly. But I have a pretty dependable track record of starting a wide variety of suddenly brilliant ideas..and coming to a point of being stuck. A little research and dreaded-reading-of-insructions (gag)…would put me back on track with a massive amount of complications that turn me into a great big ball of anxiety-riddled, useless former genious at the idea-forming stage….that suddenly hits a wall and the whole shebang skids to a stop…to be continued when I have studied til Im an expert. Who am I kidding here? The expert Im researching to become is an illusion. Never to become real. So i shall just go far it. I will post every day I possibly can…maybe even more than 1 time per day. They will be amateurish…lacking a lot of what normal blog looks like. But dont leave me. I will slowly learn bits everyday..with each post..from my computer genious sons guiding and help. This slice of what I have claimed as my home on the world of the web will quickly look proffessional and run by a competent administrator..fulfilling its purpose of using my journey…trials…pain..success…faith in Gos…passion for creativity as expression and therapy to encourage you..show you that you are not alone…and Imy desire to help even 1person to become free and joyful. I want you to move into a relationship with the Lord. And all the while..releasing my pain and secrets
.to heal my wounded self. Let the journey begin. Next post I wil begin to show my story..
post by post. In the meantime..tell me yours..your questions…comments..questions..etc.
Posted by Createtolive on March 20, 2013
I started this blog to tell my story to other women who may have hurts and need a safe place to go where they never feel alone. Through social media, networking, and word-of-mouth, I hope to reach out to those in need of an encouraging, inspirational, and creative outlet that makes them feel less alone, and more capable of rewriting their destiny. If I can help even just one woman become the special person that God made her to be, to help her find her purpose, heal her pain, and bring out her creative side, then I will have accomplished my goal with this blog. I hope to make my little niche here on the ever-growing, fast-paced world of the internet a warm, friendly, non-judgmental space with my story, my honesty, encouragement, and somewhat off-balance humor.
Posted by Createtolive on March 8, 2013
Go ahead…you can say it…”It’s About Time!” I began this website about 4 months ago and finally I am adding my very 1st post. I’m thinking that this should be easier, but the whole WordPress thing has been overwhelming for me and as I sit here typing this, I still don’t really know what I am doing! But I will get there, I am sure of it. When, you ask? I do not know. This could take an expert. Fortunately for me, I know right where to find one! In fact, he is my oldest son! He knows his computer stuff. When I finally get him to come over and show me all the tricks…and I actually have the patience to sit and listen…I am sure I will know what I am doing when he is finished “training me.” And surely he will shake his head and roll his eyes numerous times when he has to tell me the same things over and over because I just don’t get it. I am technologically impaired and I despise directions and learning how to work or do new things. I have no patience and don’t like to sit still and pay attention. Maybe that’s why I got all those comments on my report cards way back when. I am ADHD at its best. So be patient with me. And please keep checking back…because eventually you will stop chuckling when you log on to my webpage and see the amateurish mess that is my 1st website. And probably my last. But….who knows?!
Posted by Createtolive on March 7, 2013
Have you ever wanted to try your hand at writing? Have something you want to say? I am in need of some guest posters to get my website going…..how about you? Yes…Im talking to you! Leave me a comment…facebook…or email me if your interested. Thanks!